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Day Eighteen

Day Eighteen   /   lettering by Ludvig Bruneau

Jessica Walsh

Did you see Timothy today?
Yes.

What did y’all do together?
My design / business partner Stefan and his fiancée Veza left a letter on my desk at work. It said “40 days. One evening for Romance. Much love”. Inside were two tickets to go see Leonard Cohen at Radio City Music hall. So lovely and thoughtful, as they always are!

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An hour before the show I couldn’t find the tickets anywhere. I tore up my apartment trying to find them but they were nowhere to be found. I was extremely embarrassed and angry at myself. I’m normally more responsible, but the last few weeks have been overwhelming and I feel frazzled. I couldn’t believe my stupidity, and it bothered me the entire night. Tim thinks I need to go a little easier on myself.

Tim suggested we head over to MO Bar at the Mandarin Oriental Hotel. We had a few ginger mojitos and talked about life. Everything from past relationships and experiences to work, goals for the future, and the universe. At one point in the conversation he grabbed my hand and held it. Finally! His touch was welcomed, and it felt very nice. We continued to touch and hold hands throughout the night.

Did anything interesting happen?
On the way out of the bar we ran into Laura, my old advisor from high school. I hadn’t seen her in over 10 years! She helped me through a rough patch which I opened up to Tim about on the cab ride home. After I told him the story, he grabbed and kissed me. We kissed the entire cab ride. I invited him up to my apartment. We opened a bottle of red wine, and we continued to kiss on the couch. I could have kissed him all night, but he didn’t want to rush things, and he left early.

Did you learn anything new about Timothy?
I don’t think Tim likes to dance. Late last night we were texting about possibly hanging out. When I told him I was going out dancing, he stopped responding.

Did you learn anything new about yourself?
I was always a terrible dancer. In college, I was nicknamed “the finger dancer”, as I was too shy and self-conscious to dance. I’d just move my fingers back and forth at parties.

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My younger sister Lauren has the exact opposite personality of me. She’s naturally extremely outgoing, confident, and she couldn’t care less what anyone thinks of her. Over the years, I’ve learned to adopt a bit of her fearlessness towards life, and I’m much more outgoing and open now.

Every once in a while I get this urge to let loose and dance. I’ve been working long nights, and my headaches feel better today, so I was ready for a night out last night. My sister is really into the electronic music scene, so we went out with a friend to a place called Output. I know I’m just as awkward at dancing as I always was, but I can enjoy it now! I must say it’s extremely liberating when you stop caring what people think.

How do you feel about this relationship/project right now?
Good! The intimacy with Tim was nice. I’m excited to see where things might go from here.

Is there anything that you want to do differently?
I guess I should go a little easier on myself, I am only human. I’d like to be more fearless. And I should definitely keep a closer eye on $300 concert tickets.

Additional comments?
That’s all.

Day Eighteen   /   lettering by Sharon Hwang

Timothy Goodman

Did you see Jessica today?
Yes.

What did y’all do together?
Her partner Stefan gave us tickets to see Leonard Cohen at Radio City Music Hall. However, an hour before the show started, Jessie couldn’t find the tickets! We still tried to get in, unsuccessfully. Since we were already in Midtown, I suggested that we go to one of my favorite hideaways, MO Bar at the Mandarin Hotel.

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Did anything interesting happen?
A couple hours later, we were holding hands. It felt like a big relief. We left around 11 PM, started making out in the cab, and we went right to her apartment. I feel close to her, but I’m also worried about what will happen after hooking up now. I hope I don’t get 1,000 questions.

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Did you learn anything new about Jessica?
She felt horrible about losing the tickets. She tends to dwell on that energy and criticize herself even more.

Did you learn anything new about yourself?
I have powers that I didn’t know were possible. She wanted me to stay over, but I left her apartment around 1 AM. We didn’t have sex, and I feel good about that decision.

How do you feel about this relationship/project right now?
A lot better. I feel like part of what happened this past week was built-up sexual frustration. Her bad headaches and my uncertainty has been a deadly match, so hopefully we’ll fly through clearer skies now. It’s like what my friends were saying, “all the bad parts of a relationship with none of the good parts.”

Is there anything that you want to do differently?
Not really. It’s been a tiring week, and we still have plenty of time to make mistakes!

Additional comments?
Jessie hung out with her ex-boyfriend last night. Is she breaking the rules? I’ll give her a pass since they’re friends. Anyway, she texted me while they were out, and asked me if I wanted to join them.

Okay, first, a little backstory. Apparently, he doesn’t like me so much — which I didn’t know until after they broke up. I guess he accused her of flirting with me in front of him. It’s a shame, because I actually enjoyed hanging out with him. Apparently he won’t speak to her about this experiment now, and he’s not too fond of me. So why would I want to hang out with them? I didn’t want to get into any of this, so I stopped responding to her texts.

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